I have found my self thinking I'm to busy to serve krishna "I mean I chant my 16 rounds every day, and the days I don't, I make up for them the very next day". I read prabupada books regularly wether its ten minutes or two hrs there's always some time in the day to read a little.
The services I'm taking about is getting out there and spreading Krishna names, pastimes and glories to the rest of the world. I have been an aspiring devotee I would say honestly for about two years. Even though i have had devotees association for three years. When I first came and heard about the knowledge of the Bhagavatam it hit me hard, very hard "This is what I've been looking for" wow I was set on dedicating every spare moment I had to help propagate vedic knowledge to every one. And I did! I spent every spare second working to help Atma yoga and the dedicated devotees achieve the goal inspired by HH Devamrita swami in getting as many people to meet with devotees and hopefully take to devotional life themselves. One year into this by the arrangement of provenience my wife and I move into an Asrama to be closer to Atma, to learn and grow more in devotional life and to help the Brisbane temple as the new places was right next to the temple. A year later I'm asking my self what happen? some days it just seems impossible to find time for the services I intended to do in the first places.
What happen???
Did I lose my passion! no I am still very passionate in helping the devotees get srila prabupada massage out there and help build a strong community centered around Krishna. So I get very frustrated and restless when I'm unable to meet my own commitments in helping others. And I have heard many philosophy from many other devotees single bramacaries to very experience married couples to only fresh newly weds on how to deal with this situation on finding time for devotional life here are some responses I have heard some very practical and some only a suicidal bomber would adopt:
1. Go hard or go home.
2. Just do what you can prabu.
Cooking, cleaning and maintaining your home and family in a Krishna conciseness environment is Service to God.
3. It's all about time management and origination, have a good plan and stick to it, "BE REGULAR".
4. excuses excuses you always have some excuse not to.
5. Preaching, thats right on your door step you don't have to go out there to preach. You got family and work friends right there to preach to.
6. Pace yourself don't over do it, be in it for the long haul.
7. Its just impossible all I can do is chant my sixteen rounds and maintain my family.
8. I use to do harinam all the time and distribute hundreds of books a day, But you need a little "you know" me time. rethink and revaluate yourself.
I tried the go hard or go home approach but over time my hard turn to soft and I had to go home, for me hard can only last for so long, And plus I'm not the suicide type. And just doing what I can is a copout, its just to easy to do as little as possible.
maintaining your family and home in Krishna conciseness is a very important part in serving God I use to get depressed when I had to do something necessary for the home thinking I could be out distributing books. But with this piece of advice I came to see that these aspects of life are important too, even to devotees! But not to always make it a reason not to.
A good devotee and friend once said to me "You see there is this process that one must follow to reach God, and that process you must change your ways to suit. But instead what we do "because we can not meet to the standards of this process" is we change the process to meet us, instead of trying to change ourselves to meet the process.
Yes at times it is hard to change myself to meet the process of purification, but i must not give up [never] give up on changing my bad habits for better ones. Anything worth attaining in this world takes hard work, and attaining love for Krishna is of no accept-ion to this rule.
So even through its hard to find time for everything lets just try! one day in the week distribute krishna's words to others, one day in a month chant his holy names for others. For this philosophy "do what you can" can only be applied to never stop, if you can't do it every day, just do it one day A week one day a month.
FOR KRISHNA JUST DO IT!!!!!!!!!!
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