Monday, February 18, 2008

material pangs part 5: The last fight

continuing on from material pangs part 4:

We have all been through these thought processes at some time in our lives, but it is those who have the courage to go deeper into the depths of our deepest fears. Trying to let go of the seemingly solid reality that we so firmly grasp to, to go beyond the surface of things and find a deeper truth.

I looked at this path contemplating it for many years, it is a scary path one that appears very difficult, but I looked back at the world, my friends, my family, my leaders and my teachers and they had nothing but emptiness and false hope to offer. Fleeting happiness, and pain-filled lives. Grabbing the closest comfortable thing that gives them a sense of warmth, love, life and peace. But to no avail as the very nature of that comfort is only temporary, but they try! they try so hard only to find tears and if not tears then a hard, cold-heart! mistaking it as strength or indifference. You know the saying "what ever mate".
Concreting that belief as the all in all they set in a program that will destroy all that they love. Base on selfish ideals they pose they care but just like their lives their caring only can go skin deep, they can't help it! lost to their senses blinded by lust. Then they say follow, come and follow us, with all their gadgets and nice shiny things the temptation is great and overwhelming. But sorry mate I see where your going! like a dog chasing its own tail round and round you go, you fail to see the pointlessness of it all. Banging your heads hard against the walls you cry out in ecstasy, thinking "this is great" not seeing the miseries coming to you by action-al fait. I thought i rebelled against them by taking intoxication not seeing i had become what I hated, so I stop and looked and ask where was I headed.

So there is only one way to go now and that is searching for a deeper truth, to look in the mirror and face my own ugliness, my own monsters. To go deep into the question people don't want to ask, and listening to the answers people don't want to hear! So where do I look? where do I go? Through the martial arts I had found philosophy and philosophy was where I started. All kinds from the east to the west, covering science, religion, art and poetry. And wow! so much knowledge so much information all I had to do was "want" to look. There is no going back now there is nothing to go back to. The question is where am I going?

Saturday, February 2, 2008

The demons within


In this age it is said that the divine and demoniac are contain in one body, and their is a struggle from within. In the past few weeks I can say that this is true although I have seen and been through this fight many times before. This time however being a little "older", with just a little bit of spiritual association and practice I can see my sort falls with the help of others.
I have become overly judgmental and overly critical of other spirit souls, judging their behavior and actions and criticizing their point of view. In the end I have fed that demoniac nature where all this spouts from in the first place, whether devotee's, "devotee's" or non devotee's this attitude towards others is a pit fall on this path back to Godhead.
So I have been pondering where and why do I feel and think this way, asking my self question like "do I really envy others"? "do I really think my self that much better then them"? do I really care for the well fare of these living servants of God? My answer has to equal yes to the first two and no to the last one.

But this last question is what I have been thinking about for a while now "do I really care for these servants of God" ? The greater part say's yes! then why do my actions not fit into into this answer?. Over the past few months I have been getting colder more inconsiderate and more intolerable to others their feeling and where they are at. WHY? when I am on this path of Bhakti Yoga ["loving devotional" service to krishna]. Where is the love for God and all that is his? "in my judgment"? "in my criticizing"?
The very nature of these things does not come from love but envy. It must be envy! envy so deep in my heart that these two factors are the outwards manifestation pointing to the reality inside. This demon from within is only strong because I desired it so and with the same tool "desire" it can be crushed, for if I desire Krishna and nothing but Krishna then automatically my demons will be crushed. Now the question is do I really desire Krishna??? "I would say yes" maybe thats why I'm going through all of this inner fight? is this the process the beginnings of the fight to destroy my illusory coverings. Only time will tell! Honestly I know these are traits I really do not want in my life.

Monday, January 21, 2008

CLIMATE CHANGE HARINAM SPRINGHILL


"HARE KRISHNA" CLIMATE CHANGE HARINAM IN HIGH SPIRIT




THE TROOPS GO MARCHING ALL THE "WAY" WITH THE SOUNDING OF PRALADS CONCH



I THINK VRAJA GREW A LITTLE TALLER?


THERE IS ONLY "ONE WAY" IN KALI YUGA! AND ITS "CHANTING THE MAHA MANTRA" IT IS THE ONLY WAY THE ONLY WAY" EVEN THE SIGN AGREES

GET HIGH AND STAY HIGH FOREVER

Friday, January 11, 2008

MATERIAL PANGS Part 4: what's your dogma ?


Now addressing why some of us cant follow this path, because ultimately we know all of this leads to death.
Some may say you don’t need a point to life. Just live, so I say come and work for me I’ll pay you nothing, you don’t need a point to work just work. When it comes to these things they need a point that’s pretty clear-cut, but to life nahhh nobodies got any answers anyway.

We all know, but those who can’t find any real satisfaction in all the intoxication [keeping in mind the many forms of intoxication]. Provided by our leaders as an easy form of control, which aids you in forgetting all those moments that cause so much pain. Those pains that can help you start to see the reality of life.

Even now as I write this I am feeling very sick my body is devoid of any colure and I don’t have any energy. And these symptoms just came out of the blue, one minute I was find and the next I wasn’t, who would want this? Now all I can think about is when will I start to feel better.
It kind of reminds me of a drug addicted, “Who” after his high starts to come down and feels really bad and can’t wait for his next hit. So he feels “Better” but the question is! Doe’s he feel better or has he temporarily solved his sufferings with a smoke screen? Mmmm Smoke screen that’s an interesting concept for our day-to-day lives, cause-That’s all it is a smoke screen, so you can run away from the big bad issues of life so you don’t have to deal with it.

We’re all just searching for our next high, when’s the next footy match on, can’t wait until the next soap opera, the next shopping splurges, and the next sexual encounter. I just need a little something to get me by you know I’m not addicted I can stop any time I want to, so then what’s the problem stop. Well I don’t want to, I don’t have to.
The side effects are obviously a lot less evident then some one on harder drugs but none-the-less their goals are the same, to forget your daily problems. Lets check out some one else’s problems on a soap opera ahhhhh feeeels sooooo gooooood. Pollution yeh I know it so bad but any way did you see the game last night man it was awesome!

And there’s that other side which try’s to convince you that you need to be tough to drink your not a man if you can’t hold your licker mate. Your not one of us mate if you don’t watch the cricket, but just with a little back bone and just a little intelligence the truth of the matter is mate! Is that you’re the one who can’t deal with reality and that’s why you drink, and that my friend is the real weakness.

Here I speak more so to my own mentality for I was weak and I did go down that path of self-destruction, where do I go who can I trust? I was certainly lost and just like getting lost with out a map it’s usually your own fault. I mean the map’s available all you have to do is spend the money buy one and follow the exact route given on the map.


But some time’s you know that old ego steps in and say’s why waste money buying a map I can find my own way. And then you get lost frustrated and angry now if your honest you’ll blame your self and if your not you’ll blame some one else. When your deluded it’s always someone else’s fault when you are clear minded it always comes back to you and what choices “YOU” made.

THEY HAVE THEIR PHILOSOPHY
As a teen I could see the reality that the leaders of the world [the corporations] abuse, lies and immoral behavior. I could also see how the general populace aid’s them for their own greedy purposes, and ultimately sink’s deep into the core structure of our society. How could I trust anything that they say, how can anyone trust them, any knowledge given is in the end designed to help them fill their pockets. Everything they are telling us through the education system is to help us become their consumer slaves indebt to their financial institution. They have teachings as well to go with their life styles they “tell us we live only once so we need to make the most of it before we die”.

Obtain as much as you can to become truly happy or else you’ll waste your life. They advertise have as much sex as possible but make sure you use our brand of contraceptive pill and our brand of condoms, they advertise buy our car’s and you can have the women of your dreams. Buy, buy, buy, buy and you’ll be happy and if its our brand you’ll also be popular, this is the main stream philosophy of our world to day.

“One chance” get in while you can! and we have all brought into it without really looking into where this type of mentality takes us as a whole. Think about this philosophy it is telling us we only get one chance and your stuck in this body once and that’s it, no wonder why suicide is on the rise no wonder why we take intoxication and no wonder why we abuse each other and other living species. This speculative concept on our reality is in the end doom to fail, and I use the word speculative because it was manufactured by them, with out any real evidence to this reality. But they propagate this as the truth as the be all and end all, the reality as it is, and because they provide these nice little toys the masses never really questions it. And who are these “them”? they are you and me covered by lust, greed and a never ending hunger for more.

So I started to think even though there are others manipulating other living entities abusing them for their own greedy reasons, and yes the leaders are letting us all down. But what choices are you making to improve the situation of your life and the world, and certainly choosing the superficially-trivial-destructive-addictive aspect to life is not helping you or anyone around you.

We are the one’s who accept the reality in which we chose to see
the world we live in. A certain dogma in which we play our lives out
We all have a belief but ask scientifically where did I get that belief
from. did I experiment with a theory and really get the results I was
Looking for or did I just blindly accept some dogmatic reality base
On no real evidence, maybe just sentimentality, or hope, or pier pressure
Is your dogma truly helping?

Saturday, December 22, 2007

MATERIAL PANGS PART 3: WHERE TO


Why do people even feel the need to drink or to “excessively” eat, shop, watch television, play computer games, working, ect. Some will say theses are the joys of life, where alive to enjoy theses things! Without theses things what would be the point to living???
If all these superficial things was the whole point to life! Then would that not make your life superficial, and ultimately pointless? For some people this is how they feel, pointless! “This is how I felt”! So for those who can’t find contentment in this trivial-mediocre life-style, we turn to drowning out our thoughts with addiction [whatever form of addiction you have].
I spoke to a carpenter once, we had got into a small argument, about how he work so hard and that he was in-title to have his addictions. So I said “yes”, “with out these things life would be pointless”. He became silent. As if it had hit those longing question to which he shut out a long time ago, his answer was “well yeah” that was his right, “And rightly so”.

Some people may say I’m being negative, so I’ll put it in terms of negative and positive words.
Here are a few words to think about: negative- SUPERFICIAL, TRIVIAL, positive- SIGNIFICANT, INSIGHTFUL. Taking into considering the majority of people and their concerns and their actions, what words suites our society the most???
Are people spending their time on the superficially- trivial aspects of life or things with significance and insight to them.
Lets check out some of these activities that are playing a major role in our society, “and to a lot is considered very imperative to life”.
1. Sports is one of the biggest role playing ideology in our civilization.

2. Social gatherings with intoxication as the central point of congregation.

3.Idolization of sports and movie stars who set some of the worst moral and destructive habits in life.
4. Movies, television soaps, music, media with a central theme of sex as one of the main topics.

5. Sex.

Now ask your self deeply, don’t look around the room to see what other people are doing. Just ask your self “are these things in the ultimate scope of our humanity really significant or insightful”? or are they superficial and trivial????

Are these things really helping us as “HUMAN BEINGS”

Negative word:
su·per·fi·cial
1. Concerned with or understanding only the obvious.
2. On, near, relating to, or affecting the surface of something.
3. Shallow in character or attitude.
4. Swift and not thorough.
5. Only seeming to be real or the case.
6. With little significance or substance.

Positive word:
In-sight
1. The ability to see clearly and intuitively into the nature of a complex person, situation or subject
2.A clear perception of something

3.The ability of a person to understand and find solutions to his or her personal problems.

From my observations and experiences of our civilization the words that suit our society the most is superficial and trivial. Most have no real deep understanding to life, and a lot of the knowledge available is about the outwards appearance of life, “just dead matter”. Sports! which plays a major part in every culture today, is supported by the countries leaders and people to promote a strong sense of town, state and national pride. Now let me ask! “When you die”! “Is being Australian”, “American”, “Chinese or an English man or woman going to really matter”? How about what color skin you have? Will that matter? Lives based on reality like national pride is in the end! Empty, devoid of any real permanent reality.
Just names! Temporarily given too an impermanent external body of matter. It really doesn’t matter what belief a person has, whether you believe in heaven or hell, in reincarnation and karma, or that this is it mate one chance is all you get. Associating with the idea that you are a particular race, tradition, sex or religion in the end it just does not matter, not unless you think there’s an Australian heaven or hell. Or that when you get reincarnated you’ll always be an Australian, or maybe you think when you die you’ll be in an Australian non-existence! If you have some intelligence you’ll know this is stupid?
People do have some deeper concerns then sports, idols and sex. Like a genuine concern to help other living entity’s, But most people feel helpless and unable to really do anything. Ultimately they them selves are suffering and in fact can’t do much to help.

My parents, mostly my mother does love me and has my best interest at heart, they did there best to guide me in life. They could only guide me according to the knowledge that they themselves had been thought, Not just my parents but my teachers as well propagated this “truth” you know just concentrate on your studies; get a good grade ECT, ECT. And then you can be happy, “STOP” So your saying if I do all this I’ll be happy. So then! Why aren’t you guy’s happy. As a teenager all I saw is this constant struggle for more and more, so they say, “yes at the start it’s a struggle”, “but in the end you’ll be happy”. But what end are they talking about? From what I saw there was no end to this struggle, just this false hope that in the “end” everything would be better. Well is it?

For my parents I can say no its not, lets check it out since I was in high school to now. They are now divorce, my mother is still struggling very hard if not more. My father has major health problems and on top of it he is also struggling, are they happy? They have their ups and downs as they would say. But I would say over all they are tired! And I certainly don’t see any happiness not even contentment, just plain old worn-out.What is this end their talking about to me it seems to mean death, as the saying goes rest in peace. No more struggle, but honestly how do they know? From what authority do they have to say that after death there’s no more hard-ships. Can they really make a guarantee on that, a solid promise that that’s the absolute truth?
Maybe! Maybe not, who knows right? Just watch some TV and don’t think about it too hard mate, Just lighten up relax dude don’t take things so seriously.
But hey there’s nothing wrong in taking the footy seriously, or you’re favourite hobby you know those are things that matter.

This is to all the teachers of the world, mums, dads, leaders,
You are trying to guide people to happiness, BUT IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY YOURSELVES. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN! Before you can give anything to some one else, first you yourselves must have that thing. Whether that may be! knowledge, money, food and most definitely happiness or at best the proper tools for happiness. YOUR TOOLS ARE FAILING YOU!

Look at the world you’re living in, and try seeing it with clearer vision, uncontaminated with lust and greed. Our society and humanity is degrading very- very slowly the only thing improving is technologies, which is making life easier for some and worse for others.
Now you want to pass this on in the hope of your children’s happiness. Check the stats out, more kids “your kids” are turning to alcohol and drugs earlier more so then in the past, their sexual activities are becoming more out of control, Sleeping around from one partner to the next. And YOU are marketing this as the superior culture, a culture that will bring you happiness. But even your very richest are empty devoid of any real substance, just a temporary substandard substance which ultimately leads to emptiness and substance abuse. The proof is all around you just open your eye’s, there is even studies from the united nation showing that the happiest people in the world are from some of the poorest countries in the world. They are more content as oppose to richest who have a never- ending hunger for more.



The researchers for World Values Survey described the desire for material goods as "a happiness suppressant".

They say happiness levels have remained virtually the same in industrialized countries since World War II, although incomes have risen considerably

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

material pangs part 2: what are you addicted to



This is only growing! Why? When we have everything! Or do we?? Do we believe that this is just the way things have to be? Can you really answer these question for yourself?
Now back to the intoxication and the different types of intoxication. What is intoxication? Well for most people its alcohol, drugs, tobacco, caffeine. But check this out for a deeper concept, have you ever considered that shopping could be an addiction? What about eating food? Sex life is that an addiction?
Lets look up what the word addiction means in the dictionary

Ad-dic-tion n
1. A state of physiological or psychological dependence on a drug liable to have damaging effect.
2. Great interest in something to which a lot of time is devoted.

Now check out some of the research into human emotion and how some of the recent studies show that the peptides produce in the brain acts like a drug similar to morphine.

Understanding Human
by James V. McConnell - Psychology - 1986 - 11 pages
opioid peptides. And when you learn how these natural analgesics work, ...
Wei and Horace Loh suggests that the enkephalins are as addictive as morphine. .
Brain opioid peptide systems are known to play an important role in motivation, emotion, attachment behaviour, the response to stress and pain, and the control of food intake.

Now taking all this into account if the peptides created by our brains is as addictive as morphine, then the simple feeling of going shopping can be an addictive drug . In my opinion as the dictionary second terminology states: Great interest in something to which a lot of time is devoted. If we are meditating on something a lot and cant stop thinking about that thing then it is an addiction. So with a new definition on addiction, now the question is what are you addicted to?We are all addicted, whether it be watching movies, television, eating, shopping, drugs, coffee, relationships or a mixer of all of the above. Whatever addiction we are absorb in, its main purpose is to dull your mind and to forget those bigger question that no one seems to be able to answer. I believe the metaphor is sticking your head in the sand, deep down you know these question need an answer. And it’s the leaders responsibility to provide this knowledge to its people, instead they dodge the answer and reply “don’t bother about it just enjoy life”.
As the saying goes “everything” in moderation - what on earth does that mean anyway? . So on Monday I’ll have a bit of alcohol! on Tuesday I’ll have a little bit of cocaine! And on Wednesday I’ll sleep with a couple of women. I think you get the point, the emphasis is not on moderation, but on everything.
In a society that’s about making more money the focus is on “more” not the “money” its about having many things, just have a bit of this and bit of that! until there’s a lot.

Mod-er-a-tion (n)

1. the state in which something remains moderate rather than becoming extreme or excessive
2. the limiting, controlling, or restricting of something so that it becomes or remains moderate.

So you may be moderate with one particular thing but add all those things up and you will see - we live in extreme states of juggling one thing after another. And as the dictionary term states extreme and excessive is not moderation.
Let’s be honest, is the society we are living in! really based on moderation? Just look around and you will find the answer is “NO”. Everything we do is getting to be from one extreme to another. As the saying goes, “give them an inch and they’ll take it a mile”. How do we find a happy medium – is it even possible. Well for starters there are certain things we need to steer clear of – none of this rubbish about moderation. Just because you can doesn’t always mean you should! Take drinking for example. Everyone knows exactly where this pastime takes you. Let’s address why we “need” alcohol in the first place. Social lubricant anyone? Make men brave, make women loose.

Lets be real do you really believe that the current society is a moderate one? Look around - are we living moderately according to the dictionary terms. Or have we pulled the wool over our eye’s with this new-age mumbo jumbo saying “everything in moderation”.
Humans with all the other living species and ultimately the earth herself is suffering, this is all due to a lack of knowledge from an authorise source.

My point to all this, is not to be negative or to focus on the “negative” but to explain some of the thought processes my mind went through. Which ultimately lead me to the destructive cycle of intoxication, whatever intensity and type of intoxication we may have. That is not important, the fact-is an addiction is an addiction, and when we become reliant on something with a temporary and destructive nature that is also outside ourselves. We become trap in a cycle of forgetfulness, “you know mate! You think too much! Just relax and have a beer! It will take all your problems away”. So they think!
Think about it, does this hold some truth? Just look around and ask yourself, “What would happen if ALL forms of intoxication were just taken away”, How do you think people would cope with the reality of modern times. “No real answers” just speculative thought on reality. “It could be this”? “It could be that”??? “No authority”! We have an authority on every subject matter accept for the big questions.
How would people cope! the answer is in fact sheets like the web site before on depression, and please do some research on alcohol and drug abuse, on crime, suicide. You will see it getting worse not better, check out some of these web sites for yourself:

http://www.disastercenter.com/crime/uscrime.htm
http://www.aic.gov.au/publications/facts/2006/facts_and_figures_2006.pdf
http://www.marininstitute.org/Youth/alcohol_youth.htm
http://www.aihw.gov.au/publications/phe/soduia06/soduia06-c01.pdf
ttp://www.suicidology.org/associations/1045/files/2004datapgv1.pdf
http://www.livingisforeveryone.com.au/files/stats/lifestats240406.pdf

You will find trends of ups and downs, some years better then others. If you really do your research into it, you can see according to how well the society is doing in terms of finance. Some of the problems also follow suit, but some like violent crimes are on the increase. Even then! compared to the sixties to now you can see “slowly” things are getting worse. Why???

Friday, December 14, 2007


CHAPTER ONE: MATERIAL PANGS THE FACTS AND FIGURES 101

Life was not that bad? Really it was pretty good “compared” to most Ok I had some ups and downs. Some good moments some bad moments, but all in all it was pleasant.
Then why was I so unhappy? Materially speaking I had more then I needed, food on the table, a roof over my head, computer games, friends, what more did I need, I even had some aspect of God in my life.
Contemplating life was some thing I use to do a lot off. What was it all about man? I use to think just work, have fun, more work then die! Man what a crappy life with no meaning, and no point! And the fun, or what most called fun, you know playing computer games hanging out at the mall with your friends, doing the old drive by past the strand [beach] for the hundredth time. “COME ON” this is what my intelligence was design to be use for, is this all you need in life? “please”.

As my mind was ticking away I started to feel that no one had any answers, no real satisfactory answers. There were some answers to the questions, like you think too much, don’t worry about it mate just have a beer, God has his plan for you, oh and the best of all we were all just a freak accident by nature. When you think about this a lot it becomes very depressing, no one has any real answers to give.
So you get to choose one of the above choices. Because intoxication stops the thinking process, you can finally drown out those annoying question that just keep popping up. If that doesn’t tickle your fancy then you can choose blindly believing in a god that seems to only favour one particular race, sex, species and culture namely you and every thing related to you. And if that doesn’t grab you, you can choose the “scientific” belief that there is no real point to our existence and your just here by mistake, a freak accident nothing more. So make the most of it while you can, just procreate like the animals to keep the species going, forget that you have higher faculties then the animals. Just use it to do exactly the same thing don’t worry that you destroy the world in the process.

And of course you can choose a little of each? For me I decided the intoxication part more so, and took to smoking, smoking drugs and drinking. I know I’m a sad case!
But still some where in me as I got older those pressing questions got louder and louder.
What happen after that will be for the next chapter, lets return to the reasoning behind my taking intoxication and my overall unhappiness with the answers or lack of answers that most of the total population have to resort to taking some form of intoxication for.
“Truly” from entering the first grade to leaving year ten I was taught the most important aspect to life was getting the best results, so I could get the best job. Why? So I could buy all those necessities that are so important to my survival. Equalling “HAPPINESS”?????

But hold on for one second does money equal happiness? No! Just more free time doing those things that make us happy. Like playing computer games but instead of having just a couple of games I can have them all, not just the games! every console available. Then I will be happy? Forget that when I play for so long I feel sick. But I have money I can find any activity do! I’m free.
Just look at all the other rich people aren’t they happy, lets see! Elvis, mmm drug over dose, Paris alcohol abuse, drug abuse, many unhappy relationships, Kirk-suicide ect. Alcohol-drug rehabs, suicides, endless greed, unhappy relationships, maybe I’m being to negative on the whole subject or “maybe that’s the overall nature of this world we live in” “truth” “reality”. I’m sorry mum, dad but money don’t seem all that great and to the teachers of the world do you really expect all of us to believe this level of life to be the all in all. I’m sorry it’s just not good enough!
0. And for a lot of people it will not be good enough! Here are some facts straight from a authorise web site.
Depression Statistics
0. Depressive disorders affect approximately 18.8 million American adults or about 9.5% of the U.S. population age 18 and older in a given year. This includes major depressive disorder, dysthymic disorder, and bipolar disorder. [1]
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0. Everyone, will at some time in their life be affected by depression -- their own or someone else's, according to Australian Government statistics. (Depression statistics in Australia are comparable to those of the US and UK.) [2]
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0. Pre-schoolers are the fastest-growing market for antidepressants. At least four percent of preschoolers -- over a million -- are clinically depressed. [3]

[Pill-Popping Pre-Schoolers | Even Toddlers Get the Blues]
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0. The rate of increase of depression among children is an astounding 23% p.a. [4]
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0. 15% of the population of most developed countries suffers severe depression. [5]
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0. 30% of women are depressed. Men's figures were previously thought to be half that of women, but new estimates are higher. [6]
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0. 54% of people believe depression is a personal weakness. [7]
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0. 41% of depressed women are too embarrassed to seek help. [8]
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0. 80% of depressed people are not currently having any treatment. [9]
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0. 92% of depressed African-American males do not seek treatment. [10]
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0. 15% of depressed people will commit suicide. [11]
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0. Depression will be the second largest killer after heart disease by 2020 -- and studies show depression is a contributory factor to fatal coronary disease. [12]

[Depression Link to Heart Disease | Hostility, Depression May Boost Heart Disease]
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0. Depression results in more absenteeism than almost any other physical disorder and costs employers more than US$51 billion per year in absenteeism and lost productivity, not including high medical and pharmaceutical bills. [13]
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To check for your self here is the web site: http://www.upliftprogram.com/depression_stats.html

TO BE CONTINUED